Sunday, May 17, 2009
It's sad to think about all the life we've experienced without him.
However, in the midst of those sad thoughts, I've been filled with so much peace and gratitude.
Gratitude first for my knowledge of the gospel, for the resurrection and the surety we have of seeing and being with our dad again.
Gratitude also for the wonderful family that I have now. I haven't been able to find the time to go and curl up and have a good cry because of my two sweet kiddos showering me with love and kisses and the joy their sweet spirits bring to me. I just have a feeling that instead of spending my time in my own sadness, Dad would want me to instead show some extra love to my kids, my husband and the people around me.
That's just the kind of person he was. Always giving and showing love to those around him.
In memory of my dad, I will try to be a little more like he was.
A little less selfish, a little more kind. A little more forgiving. And a lot more loving and thoughtful.
I have a long way to go, but will try to live the legacy he gave to me. To show people the kind of love that he would have shown if he were still with us.
I love you dad.
And I miss you.